I am a 22 year old single father of two a 1 year old boy and five year old girl. Their mother is not dead and very able body she just feels as if she has a choice to care for her kids or not, when I feel there is no other choice. Lately I have been very worried about my kid’s future far and near. We live in a two bed apartment with my mother, and no she don’t help take care of us she takes from us, and is also addicted to coke and alcohol and im not talking soda! She stole my kids ssc and birth certificate to get food stamps for my kids which she dose not give me or spend on food. I am unemployed because of lack of childcare, she surely can’t look after them and everything I can afford is urban or inadequate, I receive unemployment benefits 80.00 a week and that all my income. Which goes on my kids. I’m still here because its stable and my mother dose things to ensure I would need to be here with here, we moved here as roommates 7 years ago I moved from fl she moved from another apt in Albany, I wanted change and had no idea how she was until it was too late, she has destroyed my credit beyond belief and utilized any and every valuable resource I have, I was stupid never thought my mother would do this stuff (I was stupid). I don’t want to hurt or harm her and don’t want her in trouble but for the sake of my kids need to get away from her. My son born 3-22-08 got myself fired in April, I just wanted to enjoy the good times in his life because nothing but work is ahead me, now it time to work and there is no where for me to go, I can do any job and usually work retail management but only have and 8 grade education which I lie about and with times like now you need good education to get anywhere hell people with them cant even get a job, but I am very smart like I said I can do anything, I love to program computers and build software and love to build my own custom hardware even more I have invent some products but have no way of getting an investor, I have been denied for public assistance 6 times I don’t even get health insurance for my kids or child care, I also am a part of many good programs that say they will help but in the end they are just someone to talk to I need results im a go getter not a sit and see what happens, im not looking for a hand out or money im looking for a point in the right direction, a lucky break, my turn, my chance, I have always given and done more than my share for everyone I come in contact with and only sometimes do the karma come back around, I know someday I will be rich but until then help me. Please help me some way some how please please help me. I want to cry but cant I have to be strong for me and my little ones, but lately been thinking that what’s best may not be with me but maybe a total stranger, I want my kids but its not about me I do an above average job taking care of them anyone who knows me can say that but as time goes on my ability to keep up or stay on track is not up to par, I will crash but the question is when and should I get my kids in a safe place before it get to that point? But if I give them to a foster home I might as well go to an insane asylum for the rest of my life im sure I would kill myself within hours after not having them, so struggle with dad of live with out him? Sorry for rambling but I had to get a lot off my chest and it feels good but not even the half has been said...
